Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Carnival of emotions
Given my current state of mind, its no wonder that my antsiness is at a uncharacteristically high level. It's been awhile since I've last felt such a turbulent swirl of emotions raging inside of me. Discontent leads the pack, riding the whirlwind, hurling seven different shades of shit at me while rallying her vicious cohorts. Guilt not so gently prods me, constantly reminding me that shes here and that I indulge in what she has to offer. Dread sits on my shoulders, weighing me down with her visions of melancholy in the drudgery of life to come while Doubt plays a precocious game of what-if with me and she's winning by a longshot.
And thus, they ride on the carousel of my mind, going round and round while its grotesque animals turn to stare at me splayed against the centre of this beastly contraption. The lesser demons gather and chuckle amongst themselves, for with unity comes strength after all.
I stare in wide eyed terror, being carried round and around to revisit each horror. 1 last time, just 1 more, they say, lies of course. And all I can do is hold on to despair.
And thus, they ride on the carousel of my mind, going round and round while its grotesque animals turn to stare at me splayed against the centre of this beastly contraption. The lesser demons gather and chuckle amongst themselves, for with unity comes strength after all.
I stare in wide eyed terror, being carried round and around to revisit each horror. 1 last time, just 1 more, they say, lies of course. And all I can do is hold on to despair.
# posted by spacemanjoe @ 00:04 
